June 2, 2009

Writing again

I picked up my guitar last night to write something new. That hasn't happened in a long time. There's been a lot going on -- inside, outside -- and I haven't done a very good job working through my thoughts or feelings. When I fail to deal with my emotions, my unidentified feelings always end up coming out in a frenzy of tears and new music. So last night that's what I did. I cried and I wrote music. I cried more than I wrote, but the one always has to come before the other, so maybe now I can do more writing.

I read something the other day that struck me: "I sabotage all my relationships so I can be a better musician." While I don't intentionally create drama in my life (or at least like to think I don't), I have noticed that dramatic events and feelings often lead to better, more raw, and more compelling music, which is what I think that author was saying.

Drawing from intense situations and emotions is certainly a part of the creative process, so in a way I'm thankful for the difficult parts of life because of the resulting art.